So a little more about me..and my life

I will go a little more into detail about my so called life, because the first time i went through and introduced myself it wasn't the greatest..i did it in a rush and go into any details really.. okay i was adopted when i was a baby, I went to a catholic school till fifth grade..i didn't fit in and left to a public school, which i kinda fit in but didn't really try. i went to Murray Jr high where i met my two best friends at the time. Melinda and Tia, we all lost touch when high school came as i went to Harding and they went other schools, two years into Harding Melinda switched to my school, i was quite a bit different from the last time she saw me and are friends clashed. so we stopped talking. she went on to have a baby and moved into her baby's daddy's house. we are currently trying to salvage our friendship.
In high school i met my friends which i am still friends with after six years. there all crazy and a little older than me. my best friend is Jessie and she has dealt with so much since i met her and we depend on each other when times get unbearable. she has a daughter now who is a year old this year but not till summer time i was named her godmother by Jessie and pun who is her baby daddy and one of my best friends as well, the godfather is puns best friend who is gichi i wont translate what his name means in native but its pervy nonetheless. the crew of ours which consists of me, pun, Jessie, Chico (who is native not Hispanic), gichi and demon, we have other ppl that we chill with but that's the main crew. my boyfriend is from Georgia and was married and has a beautiful daughter named Lilly. there is a quite a bit of drama there but we made it and now he lives with me and my mom and its all good, honestly we met online which is the weirdest place i have met a boyfriend but it strangely worked out. wouldn't recommend it though to everyone. i was lucky and got a sane one. My last boyfriend was one of the crazies lol we dated for almost 2 years and went to this school briefly, we met by chance through my friends and right before i left him i found out that his whole life story he told me was pretty much a fantasy and then on top of that he showed up at my door freaking out running from the cops because he tried to kill his best Friend and stabbed him multiple times. then some more things that ended up with me as a restraining order on him and now that he is outta jail, threats and other things.. I will always have a part of me that will love him but i couldn't deal with the drama anymore and had to move on. yay me, i just moved out of the city and into oakdale of all places because my dad died and we lost the house. i hate it out there and miss the city a lot! even though i lived on rice street. I'm almost three years overdue to graduate and i am working hard to try and do that as soon as i can but i messed up majorly in the begging of the high school thing. with parties and drugs. I used to be really quiet but i am working on breaking that out but i am still have horrible social anxiety which i hate! but i cant help but think people find me really annoying and avoid me. i don't have too many close friends because of this but all i can do is be friendly. and apparently i have this look that makes people think i hate them or am a complete bitch. but i don't see the look? i don't hate you and i hope I'm not a bitch. yes i have a dryer sense of humor than some people and kind of sarcastic at times. But i seem to have written a lot more than i wanted to.. so if anyone managed to get through the whole thing. YAY ^.^