So i broke down over the weekend or sometime and made a new myspace...i still hate the site but boredom does things to you..I might have mentioned this before but i don't usually go back and recheck my blogs. any ways i also made an eBay and put a statue of mine up there hoping i make some moneys off of it. So far i only have 1 person watching it. and makes me kind of sad. But you know whatever if i don't make any money i can hopefully decide not to sell it or like end it early lol I'm horrible!

On Friday i think it was i had yet another panic attack and told josh i was feeling like i should be committed i cant take this stress any more. My moms pills went missing again and this time my sister was THE ONLY ONE IN THE HOUSE me and josh were with her. So she had a long fight with my sister trying to get her to confess to taking the pills. She refused to and swore it wasn't her. Blaming of course josh. So my mom called a nurse to see if she could get Shelby drug tested to vicoden (opiates). While she was waiting for the call back from the nurse she called her my aunt for help on what to do. Now take it i am not very fond of my aunt she is very one sided and just a bitch.. Of course my aunt was not helpful at all saying she wouldn't blame Shelby she is too good of a kid it must be josh. UGH don't people know the majority of teens who pop pills and such are the 'Good' ones. I'm the misfit the bad kid the screw up and i never popped prescription pills. So the nurse called back. Nope they cant test her without consent it takes away her right as a human...WHAT THE EFF?? so minors can abuse drugs and get away with it. Steal and such but cant be tested BC it takes away there human rights.? what if she OD'S? then what? Do we slap them? idk. OH also the nurse says there is no such test to test for vicoden or opiates..MY ASS i know that they exist. SO my other aunt from cali calls to see what was going on. now she is suspcious of josh bc she has only met him like once. So thats understandable but she also says that those tests exist because she just had one done on her youngest son. She just bought them from s store. So my mom i guess is gonna go by two because there like 50$ and give one to my sister and one to my Boyfriend. I dont get one done because i wont even take an advil much less a huge ass vicoden so she is positive it isnt me. Which is not. I think I'm going to die from tiny pills huge one HA. Of course once my sister hears this she throws a fit. NO you should give her one too! i just wanna punch her in the face. We all know its you. just admit it...UGH i need to get away.


So in lighter terms my mom and my sister are going to California on the last day of school for 2 weeks. I didn't want to go I'm not a Cali person and when they go on vacation i try to stay and have a vacation from them! while they are out of town me and josh are gonna go look around at apartments and go to valley fair! yay, and hopefully get to see my brothers chill with them for awhile. Yep