Frusteration..!

Soooo Last night was the twiztid show and i choose not to go because i knew if i went there would be drama!!!! I was right about that a friend of mine went and my crazy ex was there looking for me and going around asking where i was and yeah yeah yeah then proceeded in getting his glasses broke and chased out of the concert.. lolz which is kind of funny but what bugs me is why he is still looking around for me at shows..the next time they come into town i am going to go and if something happens it happens but I'm not gonna miss out on super fun concerts BC I'm worried about him...

Anyways last night was another night that josh worked until 11:00 and i hate his new shift because i get sooo bored at home and I got really hurt over something that was really little, my mom came home last night and had gotten my sister and her fast food i haven't really eaten it much lately but they didn't even consider if i was hungry..No one thinks of me in my family..Is like they don't care..For some reason it just hurt ALOT i feel invisible and it makes me more self conscious and just feel bad..Not to mention i am starting to get worse symptoms of my schizophrenia..Its scares me but theres really nothing i can do but shake my head and focus my thoughts else where..I don't think most of you knew that about me but I'm mild schizophrenic and its normally not that bad but lately it seems to be worse...

But on lighter terms I am giving blood today and maybe getting my hair done if we have time otherwise I'm doing it tomorrow. But at the same time i didn't eat anything yesterday and I'm gonna be giving blood?? I'm not sure if its the smartest thing to do but i enjoy giving blood. My boyfriend is here and hes gonna be giving to!